Teenagers are so fucking misunderstood, seriously, it’s annoying how adults expect us to act like adults but they treat us like children! We go through so much and people say these years we have as being one are suppose to be the best 7 years of your life, it is and it isn’t. We all go through the stages of growing up either together or alone, we move apart from people who once meant the world to us then lose grip of them, passing them in school or on the street like strangers, wondering what happened. Parents act as if everything is okay, saying ‘Teenagers are so fucking misunderstood, seriously, it’s annoying how adults expect us to act like adults but they treat us like children! We go through so much and people say these years we have as being one are suppose to be the best 7 years of your life, it is and it isn’t. We all go through the stages of growing up either together or alone, we move apart from people who once meant the world to us then lose grip of them, passing them in school or on the street like strangers, wondering what happened. Parents act as if everything is okay, saying ‘yeah, I know what it feels like’ and you’re trying to put your point across that times have changed and things aren’t the same, we go through days thinking of a better place to be, wishing things would somehow miraculously change so all is almost perfect and we have the people we love understand just how we feel. We’re just sick and tired of bitchy girls and guys ruining what we have, shit stirring, making life hell where we just can’t bare it and somehow, we lose control of our emotions and everything slips out of place. It’s like we quote lyrics that are most significant and similar to our lives, we listen to sad songs when we’re depressed, comfort eat, spend ages complaining about how we’re unhappy with how we look, comparing ourselves to someone else who apparently looks more ‘beautiful’ than us, but we’re ALL fucking beautiful, in our own way okay? So what, we drink, have sex, smoke stuff, have our hearts broken, get jealous, feel worthless to every other human being, we sit waiting for the text we know is never going to come, hope for people to love us but hey, we’re teenagers, we fuck things up, we’re learning from our mistakes.
not only have I been kicked out of my house for being upset but I’m putting myself down so much. I don’t understand why teenagers lives have to be so difficult. there’s always one fucking thing in the way that ruins everything. I don’t know what that thing is but it’s everywhere I go, in every situation I have, it’s making me cry. It seems that I can’t be happy for more than an hour, something has to crush my emotion into total shambles and I feel a wreck. no one really cares anyway, so I don’t see why I try, I feel like its me against everything else, fuck you society, for making everyone judge.
my life is so shit right now, i cant even fucking think straight without me thinking of more things that i shouldnt be thinking about. i hate overthinking, it can totally ruin you as a person, its difficult not to, i lie awake some nights and i just get carried away with it the worst thing is i cry. i cry so much that people get fed up being around me and its awful. i bottle so much shit up and take it out on myself, then i self harm and then things feel better..for a little while. i dont know why i do it, its just relief, its not attention seeking its showing struggle ffs. im not in the slightest a mean or nasty person, im just really vulnerable right now, i cant trust no one, not even myself. i hate myself for it, its just imperfect, everything. things are falling apart but at the same time they’re falling together and its messing with my head. i dont wanna grow up ,growing up sucks so much, i just want my life to be great like it was last summer, those people made it something special. i just want to be happy again, i feel like the whole world is against me. i feel i have no one to turn to since my dad left and its not the same, i dont understand why people make life so fucking difficult, i just want to smile properly, and not have to fake it.
it just sucks cause you know they probably dont care
I’m on the bus to college right now, I should of been on this bus over half an hour ago but I just couldn’t be arsed getting out of bed because im just not in the mood today.
I have a problem with over thinking things, I swear I do, it’s something that only happens when I feel upset or like I want to cry and it gets me really down. I can’t help but feel like shit because of it, it ruins many things in my life does over thinking, I can’t sleep at night, I don’t eat enough, my relationships with people don’t work and I constantly cry wishing that for once id like to be happy.
My main reason to worry is my boyfriend. he’s going to uni this September and no one understands how hard it will be for me, not even him. I tell him I worry, I tell him I’ll be a mess and a very much more emotional person that what I am now and he simply tells me not to worry, it’s difficult ya know? stuff goes through my mind about it like ‘what about if he meets someone better than me?’ what about If he starts to not care anymore?’ ‘what about if he doesn’t miss me?’ ‘what about if he forgets me?’ there’s so so much more stuff but I don’t want to think about it. my eyes are filling up with tears as I write this because I know how close it is till he goes away for a long time, it’ll be months before I see him again properly and spent real quality time with him. where we’d sit together, watch films with loads of sweets, snuggle till I fall asleep on his shoulder and wake up later wishing it could happen again and again and again. but it can’t, can it?
He wants to make something of his life rather than waste it with me, going on at him about how much I’ll miss him when he goes and how it’ll hurt me to see him find someone else if he loses interest in me.
I’d hate to think what I’d do without him, I’m only 16 but he’s he only thing I have in my life which helps keep me grounded and feel like I’m worth something. my grandma always tells me ‘you never forget your first love’ and I don’t want to, I want to spend the rest of my life with Jack, I really do. if he knew this he’d probably say I was being silly or I should just take it as it comes, every single day. without a doubt though, he’s my world, I love it when he tells me things I don’t get to hear often and he surprises me with hugs from behind and when he kisses me when I cry and he tells me I’m beautiful. he’s what makes my life so much better yet so painful at the same time, painful because I know deep down he doesn’t want to spend the rest of his life with me, he’ll get bored eventually because I’ll have given him everything and I’ll have nothing more to give. I’ll never stop loving Jack and I know that because he’s my world, I could never love anyone anymore than I do him, I promise you that.
the stupid thing is is that he is constantly on my mind, there is never a day that goes by where I don’t think about him and I guess there never will be.
I just want him to know how I feel, and how it’d hurt to see him love someone else if he got the chance. I trust jack with my life, but I worry too much, I just want him to reassure me that everything’s going to be fine and he doesn’t want anybody else but me. I always manage to tell myself though that I’d he didnt love me and he wanted someone else, he wouldn’t be with me.
just the thought of him going to uni, leaving me behind, only being able to see him once every month or few weeks, kills me, because I just want him to be here, with me and not anyone else. I love jack, I really do but me worrying is making my head so fucked up its untrue. I can’t stop my brain from over thinking, but he can stop me from worrying if he tries and tells me how he feels. he’s the only thing I have to keep me going, he’s the most amazing person I have ever met and he IS my world.
i can guarantee you EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US makes mistakes. we really couldn’t care what our parents have to say, we’re very stubborn and we witness every emotion there has been known to the human body. We cause trouble, we fight, we love, we cry and we really give up on believing in a higher power..cause we feel less superior to every other human being walking the planet. I guess we all come from dysfunctional families, cause none of us are perfect; we say things we don’t mean, we yell, we scream, we get broken hearts, we drink away most guilty feelings. Grades don’t seem to matter to us anymore, we basically live on quotes and music that describe our lives and most importantly we are tired. Tired of waking up each morning, having to battle out the day where we see people we hate yet block from our thoughts and the people we love. I guess we get tired of waiting for the text messages/calls that are not going to come and we get tired of pretending we’re fine and hiding everything behind a smile.
I refer to teenagers as ‘us’ as we all have witnessed this in some stage of our lives..
Its fair to say, life actually isn’t fair and our parents tell us the quote ‘everything happens for a reason’ why? I mean, who am i to question this? I bet we all sit around thinking ‘what if?’
Us as teenagers, seriously need to hold the photographs close cause even though the people change in them, the memories never will.